Well Folks the weather is warming up and I'm too exhausted to even tell you about it. Its 830 on a Friday and I am about to go to sleep. The great news is I have 2.5 more weeks of being intern. Started from the bottom now i'm done. Thursday I was sooo done mentally that me and my roomie had to indulge. 2 drinks, food and dessert. #no shame We enjoyed twenty manning grill's outside seating :) Thankful for the roomie.
More interesting posts coming soon when I am not so sleep deprived. I starting reading the happiness project courtesy of one of my new philly peeps :0 More reflection coming to a blog post near you.
Holler.
twenty manning. rittenhouse. intern year will do this...
Quiet time to think is what I love most. I often fight the battle of balancing the need for stillness with the need for progress and forward movement. The sound of stillness, reflection, water on a quiet spring day can feed my soul and leave me refreshed. Sometimes this is all I can do to keep myself moving forward in this battle called doctoring/life. I know at the same time I have to stay eager, energetic, and curious.
Today I found a quiet moment on the Schuylkill river. Sleep deprived, hungry and dehydrated I put my running shoes and went for it. It's amazing what you think about when you're running. You may run from your home, job, significant other.. but you can't run from your thoughts.
My thoughts kept coming back to a re occurring theme. Valuing myself, knowing my heart and protecting my spirit. As many twenty something women the themes of career, love, God, companionship have left me vulnerable. The things that once made me fearless and brave now make me timid and fearful. In the pursuit of dreams, achievements, status have I protected my spirit. Have I valued myself? Am i bold and fearless in the decisions that define my life? Have I forgotten the things that sustain me? Did I share my spirit, inner self, and joy with unworthy and unappreciative people. Yep. I probably.
And what did that leave me feeling like on the other side. Empty and wondering why.
Sitting on the Schuylkill today I found the beauty in this reflection. I learned that I still love my stillness and solitude. For now... running solo is a metaphor for my life. Taking it one step at a time. But I'm not really alone. I know this. I'm vulnerable yet stronger. Knowing that hurtful things in my life now come with age and sometimes hurt a little deeper than expected. but these experiences add depth. richness and layers of me. Yeah that acknowledgement was there last week and can't even look your way this week or speak your name. But it's ok. Because my depth has impact. Acknowledgement from the unworthy would take away from my depth. So don't worry. You're not worthy anyway. :)
Well folks. Your girl turned 27. Its hard to believe.
I initially was feeling some sort of way about 27. Not sure why... actually i know why ha. Realizing the painting of life is not always how you envision it... but that doesn't mean the painting is any less of a masterpiece. After some inner pep talk and wisdom from a few girlfriends I got myself together and realized what I am thankful for. Thankful for new adventures in a new city. Thankful for a job... even though this job takes all of my strength. Thankful for a wonderful family, healthy parents and a motivated younger brother.
Especially thankful for the simple things... warm crisp spring air, laughter, the possibility of love one day and that the city of Philadelphia has come alive with the new season of spring.
What will 27 bring? that is always the question. 25 brought the long awaited MD status and travel. 26 brought a new city, friends and a job. 27 will hopefully bring direction, renewed focus, quiet confidence and joy.
shout out to the good people that celebrated my birthday with me. :) Thursday started with the amazing night market in fairmont. 3 blocks were shut down for food trucks, live music and fun. Friday included two presentations.. quick appearance at the co worker bbq and debauchery with my "urban" crew :)
Well folks. Its the end of an era. My urban tribe is officially done with paying tuition. The final Doctor has made her way through. This weekend we celebrated the wonderful graduation of my friend Amanda.
Amanda has always been determined and we never doubted for a MOMENT she would not become a dentist. We have soooo many memories I could write a book. Like when I was on my rotation lonely in Greensboro and Amanda would visit me when she came back from Charlotte. Or when I broke up with my boyfriend and she came over and let me cry.. or our cheesecake and wine Fridays during professional school and who can forget last year when I was trying to move and my moving truck decided to randomly show up while I was in Atlanta Who was there to open my apartment.. Amanda.
But as I reminisce... I also must look forward. I realized this weekend that life is moving forward whether you want it to or not. I realized that one of the main reasons I love north carolina so much were the friendships I formed there and the people I love are there and honestly I realized I didn't want them to leave although I had. Well... not anymore... They too must follow their dreams and see the rest of the world. The urban tribe must eventually disband and make lives of our own, families of our own and develop new friendships.
I've spent the last decade of my life making memories with these girls and rest assured this is not the end of these memories. As we grow and change we will still have those memories to look back on with joy and laughter. Sooo though this weekend was bittersweet.. it was more sweet then bitter and it was only the selfish nature of my love language.. "quality time"... that left me a little sad at times as though I were losing a friend. But thank goodness for facetime and skype my girls are only one phone call, girls trip, instagram pic away.
I love my friends. I'm often the sentimental one. Mushy. But not a tearful chic :)
Happy mothers day to our mothers. They made us the women we are. Leaders in business, medicine. pharmacy, dentistry and whatever else we decide to conquer. Love you girls.
new favorite photo
looking fly in that mint green
Dr. Amanda Tinesha!
The Davis Crew
Love THIS GURL RIGHT HERE!!
Oh. And did I mention. Somehow these girls make me want to work harder. Be Better. Love harder. Pray more. Be great.
Have a great week folks. Gotta get on my grind. The crew doesn't mess around.
This week was a tough one. The theme was "just gotta make it." Highlights of the week included: repeatedly going to work with one ashy foot....and enjoying a wonderful restaurant in philly on friday..... And to wrap it all up after working 7 days in a row I was signed up for the broad street ten miler... and again the theme was just gotta make it. I was so worn out this week that I exercised once. This involved barely a 3 mile run. The second attempt to work out was such a fail that I started running and had to stop and walk.
Folks who know me... Know.. I enjoy to run. So yes I was worn out.
Keeping myself entertained before the race
The good news is. I made it! I survived. 7 day stretch. Done. Ten miles. Done. Achilles tendon.. is probably done too.
The best part of the broad street run was seeing all of the fabulous black women in their lovely black girls run t shirts. Every mile there was a group of BGR supporters. As you can see by the photo. I felt like a celebrity.
I will admit miles 7-10 were tough. Many people run these races for bragging rights but I enjoy the entire experience. Making new friends, the sounds of the race, kids on the sidelines with signs for their moms, the 7 men along the fence all letting it go at mile 2!!, the bands on the sideline, seeing the mayor of Philadelphia at the finish line.... i really do not understand why people run with headphones. The sounds of the race are half of the experience. Looking forward to finding some running mates soon.... some of my best times in Chapel Hill were running with friends and discussing life as we jog. Until then I will keep trudging along creating experiences on my own :)
Just trying to make it :)
Briana "and they love me" Buckner ;)
And may is my FAVORITE MONTH of the year, yep its my bday month. The year of the 27 maybe??
Living life.. One race, one step, one hill at a time.
Friday night with my girl preethi. We went straight from work to Audrey Clair. Awesomeness
Friday with Preethi! eating outside. This is the best part of philly and living in a city. Walk outside to bliss.
Preethi!!!
The new friends I met at the race!
Temple band giving us some motivation
sooo many people. city hall was in sight!
Jams of the day. A little old school and new school for your listening pleasures.
Still listening to kid cudi extremely too hard.
It is Sunday! :) Throw back. EVERYTIME I hear this i remember singing it outside of the library with chelsea and sophia waiting for the bus while we were studying for step 1. No shame.
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